What I Know Now

I was raised a christian, taught to believe in the Bible as God’s word, and Jesus as the Son of God.   During my early years, I was very involved in church activities; I taught Sunday School, was the President of my local Youth Group, sang on our youth choir and danced. Most of the scriptures I know now I learned during my childhood and teenage years. Although they meant little to me then, they later helped to transform me.

This blog is the result of many years of serious, honest conversation within my spirit. It is a conversation that I’ve been having with God about what I thought I knew, and the gap between that and the truth. There’s so much more to learn, so much more to know…

But I’ll start with now – what I know now…

1. I know that I am who I am, and that I’m okay. I’m not too anything, although I can take a little tweaking here and there. But that’s for me to do; and until then, I’m okay just as I am.
2. I know that I will never be happy unless I’m me.
3. I know that it’s okay to say no to something other than drugs and sex – like people.
4. I know that not even God can please everyone, so why should I even try?
5. I know that everyone will not like me, and guess what? I don’t have to like everyone either!
6. I know that if I am honest I wouldn’t judge others; because if I look carefully and honestly, I would see that the thing I hate in you, is also in me.

 

Setting the Tone

The purpose of this blog is to simply express my ideas on life’s big questions (God, religion….) and on life’s issues – big and small.  It is not intended to offend anyone in particular, but simply to speak the truth as I see it, as frankly as I can.  I grew up on a small Caribbean island, in a Christian household, and back then, church was my life.  It is much different now.  I have grown up, I have moved away and church is no longer my life.  Although I still hold sacred many of my childhood values, I have developed my own moral compass.  Not haphazardly or defiantly, but over many many years of thoughtful reflection and deep, earnest and honest dialog within myself.  And my motivation was simple: “when I was a child, I spoke as a child, I thought as a child, I understood as a child.  But when I became a [woman] I put away childhood things.”  I Cor. 13:11

I believe that if we are brave enough to listen to our own hearts, if we give ourselves permission to ask our questions, and if we have the courage to hear the answers, then life would open up for us, and joy would come to stay.  And then we would be free.  It’s a wonderful journey, the journey to ourselves…